It's A Fucking Time Machine

V Day <3

2012-02-14T19:27:00.001-08:00

I am
quite
foolish

2012-02-10T22:15:00.000-08:00

james brown - try me

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Blur Left

2012-02-07T20:12:00.000-08:00

Got the goods
There's just no excuse when it's your day off.
Wrote a couple songs,
figured I'd put em up all at once for
Dramatic Effect
when I finish 5 for 6 of em.
i'll just put some covers here
for the time-beings

+ Things I've learned:
iPhone earphones do not help you hear what you sound like on your monitor
Sitting on a stool for 2 hours does not help your bad back
You might not want to put up the first piece of shit thing you decide to record

fuck it, do shit.

Focus Right

2012-02-07T12:06:00.001-08:00

How do I make this work
It's been so long
Too long
Don't give me the
red light forever
Fucken soundriver bullshit
and I have to buy a quarter inch adapter as well.

fuck

Who knew?

2012-02-04T22:29:00.000-08:00

bought the garage band app for my iphone.

Boys2Men

2012-02-04T22:03:00.001-08:00

Helping is a chore
unless you're paid in beer

then it's an event

Joshua the Anti-Hero

2012-02-04T11:40:00.001-08:00

I stared at him with a contemplative
gesture
I thought of my laundry as he scarfed
down the last bits of his reward.
Bodyguards are better men
but I eat like a king

Savanity

2012-02-04T10:58:00.001-08:00

I'd wade through her pictures
sometimes
The nature, lighting, ardent shades spread across each scene so I could see
the time she spent
staring, sifting, and wading through garbage
to find her unblemished love

"why settle for anything less?"

Dear blogspot,

2012-02-04T00:56:00.001-08:00

I remember trying to explain myself,
useless.
If I write it down I'll start believing in it,
also useless.
so I was less
likely to use
this.

now tell me what you've ever done for me besides pretend to listen?

my life as a sitcom

2012-02-04T00:16:00.001-08:00

but when a man is in pain he can't think right,
he only asks for
more.

and
gets it.

Round 2

2011-11-01T19:35:00.001-07:00

Yeah, I'm taking it all back.

yule tied

2010-12-26T17:49:00.000-08:00

alcohol has officially replaced presents for Christmas.
we're that family now.
oh yeah

best accidental dollar I've spent at the Apple Store
10 Lights Out by yourabigstupid

oh Holy days

2010-12-22T11:55:00.000-08:00

Bulgogi, i tire of you
tumblr, you are not forgiven
I've broken 3 e strings this month. and so
this happens|ed

Naive Thieves - Holiday In The Sand by yourabigstupid

Cling

2010-10-06T22:19:00.001-07:00

It was a hell of a lot easier when you were a kid and your parents told you what to care about.

Most days

2010-09-19T23:04:00.000-07:00

I really didn't want to read that but I thought I should so I did.

Time for a change

2010-07-24T11:30:00.000-07:00

With hoping my non settlings of thinkings won't subsist squat, I've decided to pack my thoughts and move to TUMBLR on the permanent. I'm jumping ship, un-gents and gents. No more thought speaks of the weary! It's time to consolidate.

htttp://dashc.tumblr.com

edit: and just as I've finger pressed the click of the clicker did I learn of Tumblr's downserver.

D. Bazan

2010-07-17T14:42:00.000-07:00

"you used to feel like the forest fire burning but now you feel like a child throwing tantrums"

this album rules! my solemn nights.

In difference

2010-07-16T00:19:00.000-07:00

my heart and my brain

My heart is telling me to stay with Cannon and my brain is telling me to move on.
I know it should be the other way around.

you're probably wondering if you could care less
and i'm thinking yes

words

2010-07-14T13:03:00.000-07:00

The comparison between 'give up' and 'get up' has always blown my mind

I'm a person

2010-07-08T00:11:00.000-07:00

Food.
Lost.
Running.
Pictures.
Lost.
Drink less...
Socialize.
Familiarize.
Plagiarize..
Lost.
Stay positive! s s s stay pos.....................

stare.

sorry rss readers. title's wrong.

sweet

2010-06-05T22:45:00.000-07:00

yawn

2010-05-27T22:16:00.000-07:00

Ryan started the fire

2010-04-13T19:52:00.000-07:00

When the parents go out of town we don't start parties....
WE START (pretty) FIRES!

...and parties

You're an old man, snake

2010-03-27T13:53:00.000-07:00

+ 5 more pies in jars

my yesterday.

*Trying to post this on a mac.
Dear Mac,
Please go suck on many dicks.

oh three oh Seven

2010-03-07T01:15:00.000-08:00

Zzzzzzz, how was my weekend? Same old same old.

...beer..

[Repulsor Blast!] [Taken by Mike]

...music..

[THIS is why nobody let's me touch them.] [Taken by Mike]

...and women..

[Why did I ever get involved with a robot pirate?] [Taken by Me]

Obviously started picking up the camera again.
Happy Anniversary, it sucks you're going back to UCLgAy today!

"Guest Blogger"

2010-02-21T02:53:00.000-08:00

(She decided to write this in my Moleskine so I decided to share it)

"We saw The Lovely Bones tonight. It was anything but lovely" I AGREE
"Then we went to Denny's and didn't get refills on our bottomless fries. Then we came back and I caught you cheating on me with a mangy furbag mutt called Sparky (<3). We are now about to watch the Fantastic Mr. Fox and it better be as fantastic as you said it was otherwise I will be severely put out. That's all she wrote"

thank you for the fresh perspective.

She said we needed a picture of us. hehehehh

p.s. I delivered. Twas Fantastic!

Snaps

2010-02-15T22:32:00.000-08:00

Nobody told me Volcanoes can do that shit!

VOLCANO

VD

2010-02-14T23:53:00.000-08:00

Yes. It's spreading.

it's public. get over it.

Listening to: The Damnwells - One Last Century
Reading: 100 Years Of Solitude (again.)
Drinking: H20yeah

*BSG Finale was the worst.

happy january 20th

2010-01-20T02:09:00.000-08:00

Oh boy, I was finally forced into some songwriting and it wasn't half bad! Yup.
okay.. okay... I DID spend the next half hour learning how to play every song off Artist In The Ambulance but I swear half of the reason was for research... nope that was a lie.
This is the pattern, as much as I hate to admit, in which I fall into.
Step 1 - try and write some original stuff
2 - get distracted or listen to music for inspiration
3 - get depressed about how I can't come up with anything as good
4 - play their music instead
5 - realize the pattern and write a blog entry to feel better about myself
6 - think about how noone reads anything I post
7 - drink
8 - see 7
9 - find a hooker
10 - beat her up
11 - wear her skin and dance around
13 - infiltrate hooker gang with new disguise
14 - use profits to fund research for a T-Virus
15 - what happened to 12

sometimes, life's pretty good

Listening to: Meaghan Smith - The Cricket's Orchestra
Reading: The Road (again?)
Watching: Battlestar Galactica Season 3

2010

2010-01-17T00:14:00.000-08:00

New Years Resolution #1:
Drink less 'cause lord knows I could use a warm kiss instead of a cold goodbye....
..NEW YEARS RESOLUTION #2:
at least TRY to be original
NYR #3:
check this shit out

EDIT-
NYR #4: Be less of a dildo

'09 Results

2009-12-30T23:57:00.000-08:00

I took a gander at my blog post for my resolution for the beginning of this year and only found some AA quote ripped off of Mr. Brooks. I fear I'll never stop being up my own ass T_T. Well, let's sum up this year for all of you who don't care. suck it.

1. Resolution to stop smoking - succeeded... then failed miserably, then succeeded again about two months ago! I agree, it doesn't count!
2. Resolution to work - Most I could muster was a temp job. FAIL.
3. School - Spring and Summer woot woot A's FTW, then I couldn't afford to go this fall. Fall Failure.
4. Friends - Losing/Lost touch with some old close friends T_T. Kept the closest closer! I'LL MAKE IT UP TO YOU GUYS! I SHALL!!!!! FUCK IT NAME DROPS - Minami, Justin, John V. I'll do my best to keep better contact/be a better friend in general. (maybe wilmer if he stop being so damn popular)
5. Females - New relationship, this one seems like it's gonna last a long time. Let's hope she doesn't wise up too soon o_o'.

More memories made and wasted in the span of 365 days!(was this a leap year? fuck it)
New Year's Resolutions Coming Soon.

blogged thrice only twice today

2009-12-19T02:12:00.000-08:00

In Exile

I am an exile, a sojourner
A citizen of some other place
All I've seen is just a glimmer in just a shadowy mirror
But I know one day we'll see face to face

I am a nomad, a wanderer
I have nowhere to lay my head down
There's no point in putting roots to deep when I'm moving on
Not settling for this unsettling town

My heart is filled with songs of forever
A city that endures, where all is made new
And no I don't belong here
I'll never call this place my home
I'm just passing through

I am a pilgrim, a voyager
I won't rest until my lips touch the shore
Of the land that I've been longing for as long as I've lived
Where there'll be no pain or tears anymore

...

2009-12-05T18:38:00.000-08:00

it all started when i peed my pants in 2nd grade

Bene

2009-12-01T03:40:00.000-08:00

your words aren't funny your poetry's false

some lesser things:
I can't stop playin a rift from joe's waltz in my brain wrinkle
Assasin's Creed II is the business
Sleep schedule is back to status = fucked
Working on black friday is stupid
exercising in futility:
I still dwell on the past.

I Take It Back

2009-10-28T23:10:00.000-07:00

tumblr is just way too much fun/accessessessible.
http://dashc.tumblr.com/

Happy Birthday

2009-10-22T11:20:00.000-07:00

ya freakin dumbass

Hum till you forget

2009-09-29T01:11:00.000-07:00

There's a tune. It plays over in my head.
Aren't I glad everyone's drowning it out with their singing?

Moved

2009-09-08T12:04:00.000-07:00

http://dashc.tumblr.com
for political reasons

not REALLY moving. This will be my sanctuary while my tumblr will be my headache.

worth it post

2009-09-05T22:51:00.000-07:00

Listening to - Owen (New Leaves)

hell yes.

once, there was nothing and something, never

2009-08-20T17:18:00.000-07:00

caught between the recesses of imagination and temporal reality. i live in a blur.
comfortably awkward.

que ambiguous borderline-pretentious photograph.

It's a beautiful thing when you love somebody

2009-08-16T01:17:00.000-07:00

and i love somebody

edit:
yeah i love somebody

update

2009-08-10T01:11:00.000-07:00

"if i live too long i'm afraid i'll die"

2009-07-30T21:17:00.000-07:00

wait i got a cooler one.

"I gave the world one hell of a time and I don't regret a thing except for the times that I got caught givin' in."

yeeaaaaaaah

fun.

2009-07-30T12:47:00.000-07:00

Been hanging around the library too much.

"cannot endure this world though one does not want to deny it."

I figure if its cool enough, people would want to find out where it's from.

613

2009-07-28T15:11:00.000-07:00

Well I'm sorry everybody knows you can't break me with your gutter prose

Show's over, Shakespeare

2009-07-22T19:04:00.000-07:00

Quoting the simpsons with mike or just as much I can stand (which is more than I can count) is one of the few enjoyments I get out of life. Yes, I'm a sad person.... and its all good and fun until its about the hundredth time you're replying "Well, it's not quite a mop, not quite a puppet, but man... *laugh, then pause*. So, to answer you question, I don't know." and get the stink eye.

I've had been contemplating on writing a very judgmental/vague entry about people who do very judgmental/vague things but I suppose I'm just not the type to follow through on posting my half assed theories in a game of charades and irony.

side note: does anyone else get overly frustrated with people who chew in an annoying manner?
om nom nom!

runs out to buy green paint

2009-07-21T13:09:00.000-07:00

via... con dios

listening to:
Doves - Kingdom Of Rust

STRIKE FIRST. STRIKE HARD. NO MERCY

2009-07-21T00:45:00.000-07:00

Ah just like my dead bonsai tree, I've been neglecting this blog.

I was surprised to see this the other day on TV.... and as I finished writing that I ended up watching their video for Two Weeks. Awesome. Anyways, more entries soon!

its not for everybody but if you enjoy music you should consider picking up veckatimest.

extra bitter

2009-07-11T21:03:00.000-07:00

source

you, me, an x-ray machine

2009-07-08T22:32:00.000-07:00

I swear that day, you saw straight through me.

hmmmmmm I wonder if you remember.

Just watched Revolutionary Road

2009-07-07T00:39:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE FUCK?!

to my friends and family

2009-07-05T22:00:00.000-07:00

i don't say it much but

i love you all. thanks for constantly being in my life. you guys make everything worthwhile.

now i've got a record of it.

j in my pants

2009-06-29T22:55:00.000-07:00

^^

2009-06-26T10:22:00.001-07:00

My greatest pastimes(did anyone know it's spelled like that?!) in this blog is referring to xkcd.

http://xkcd.com/602/
So which one are you?

On a sidenote, if you ever want to experience schizophrenia. Do LSD (Acid).

Bout that time a chap?

2009-06-19T11:09:00.000-07:00

It seems my weekly schedule has taken its toll on me. Night used to be the only time of day for me! Now I'm sleeping by midnight and waking up at dawn's ass crack. I recommend seeing yourself in the third person instead of like a first person shooter. It takes the fun out of the trivial things you do ^^. Like writing a blog entry.

Anyways, its time for a real update. School has been getting better. These summer classes, while compacted as hell, is something I've been digging. I get to wake up early make some breakfast and coffee, read (either the paper or stuff on the internet :D) go to school and learn then hang out with Justin after class. The boring parts are of course HW and Labs but that's just the price you pay.

Oh, I have to compose my own music for the final and I'm debating how serious I want to take this.

On the lazier side of things I've taken up RO again with my brother in the evening. Its a great time killer and its great being able to keep in contact with him in some way.

Listening to:
Grizzly Bear - Vackatimest
The Dear Hunter - ACT III Life and Death

Reading:
The Road Less Traveled (starting to dislike it)

Playing:
Prototype (finished that shit)
RO

The Last Song (yeah right)

2009-06-18T00:32:00.000-07:00

Had a conversation with one of my best buds today who just turned 21. We've all realized at one point that life moves pretty damn quickly and in the whole scheme of things its really scary to imagine the point in which you won't even be able to even contemplate. That of course lead to where we are in the point of our lives as opposed to where we thought we'd be. It seems that as I grew older my expectations of how I saw my future gradually decreased. Which then got me to thinking if its the case that I messed things up along the way or that my experiences left me with the wisdom to accept the more simple things in life. Am I being too hard on myself if I say I've been making really bad decisions? Am I lying to myself if I say I don't want anything as grand as I had imagined? I honestly don't know.

But here I am. Living it down. Yet somehow it keeps coming down to...

where you are.
and why the hell aren't you with me

this guise

2009-06-12T01:14:00.000-07:00

When you think of the words "I miss you", who pops into your head?
... green power ranger action figure.
I can't believe I left you in Virginia when I was but a wee laddie of 5 years.

I wish I had a picture to keep the ball rolling.
fuck it i'll just do an old one.

yeah. the gay old days.

now the only one you have is

2009-06-10T22:18:00.000-07:00

TDH's ACT III is due to official release on the 23rd. Of course with the invention of the internet and its "leaky" holes. It's not completely impossible to obtain it prematurely.... hey I'm still planning on buying it!

Well, I haven't had the time to really take a good listen to it but it sounds promising so far. From what I've gathered, just like the other albums, it sounds like the only way to fully appreciate it is by listening to the whole record in one sitting. Get the water boiling, its gonna be a long night.... maybe tomorrow.

Just look at at all the crap you get with the deluxe version though,
Limited deluxe edition Includes a picture book that tells the story of "the boy"'s journey throughout the preceding album, "Act 2: The Meaning of, and all Things Regardings Ms. Leading." The illustrations were done by artist Kent St. John, with the coloring done by Synapse's Glenn Thomas. For those unfamiliar with the first two acts, the book will serve as a prologue of sorts to "Act 3: Life and Death." Includes 4 additional tracks not on the standard version.

- Embossed DVD Cover
- 32 Page Illustrated Color Booklet
- 14 Double Sided Postcards

***THIS PRODUCT WILL SHIP WITH AN AUTOGRAPHED POSTER***
***THE POSTER WILL BE FOLDED***

menos el oso

2009-06-08T17:09:00.000-07:00

Quote of the day: "Who knew studying would help with exams?" - Justin

Coffee + cigarettes + abnormal psychology = headache. Now throw in some confounding variables id est Bryan and Justin and you get... high.. ON KNOWLEDGE! *freeze frame air high five*

One day we'll meet again, old friend.

Aftermath

2009-06-07T14:49:00.000-07:00

It's been a long week. Highlight = I get to play with my SG again because my buddy Cliff lent me his amp.

RIP

2009-06-03T22:33:00.000-07:00

....

The Jester

2009-06-01T22:44:00.000-07:00

Stay up all night for trivial reasons. Walk home for over an hour. Just in time for class. Pound coffee. Try to stay awake. Home. Hang out with old friend. Have an argument instead. Go back home. Nap. Laptop. Shave (finally). Shower.

11:30 = good night.

"Let's make a list of who we need, its not much if anything. So let's make a list of who need and we'll throw it away cause we don't need anyone"

I'm sure I'll feel differently later.

shit...

2009-05-22T00:27:00.001-07:00

So if I hadn't mentioned it already, the reason I was able to have fun recording crap in my free time was due to Harry's awesome help of lending me his condenser mic a few weeks back. Alas, with only a rough recorded version of the song I was working on (some lyrics I hadn't worked out yet and only gave a melodic word salad) finished, it was time it was reunited with its master. eg I'm not putting up the song unless in some magical way I find something to record with.

I feel like I'm starting to believe people actually read this haha. Maybe I'll put up a Beatles cover my brother and I did but I wouldn't want to subject you internet ghosts to any more of this lousy music.

Composure

2009-05-19T12:06:00.000-07:00

Le song I was working on will be put up here on either thursday night or friday...day. Just a brief update in case ya'll think I'm procrastinating, which I sort of am. But I was planning on this the whole time.
Special thanks to kimblot for showing me this blip.fm site. Access to the crazy shit I listen to is now available at http://www.blip.fm/djearache.

yourabigstupid: hay
Dynamite: is for courses
yourabigstupid: of horse

pew pew

2009-05-13T12:09:00.000-07:00

Taking a break from working on my song for today. Did a cover of an old owen song.
Well its not too old but not a lot of people know about it.

Ugly On The Inside (Owen Cover)

The lighting in this room
doesn't do a thing for you or your complexion
I'm sorry but its the truth
you look like the god damn living dead

but honestly i don't care
how you do or don't your hair
you're ugly on the inside

the make up that you use to catch some eyes
and hide your imperfections
does little to conceal
an ego that's been bruised so many times
that you left it at home
with your underwear

but honestly i don't mind
who you do or don't tonight
you're still ugly on the inside

you've got time to change
or go ahead and drink those drinks drunk again
someone will drive home

Revelation

2009-05-13T01:37:00.000-07:00

I'm not a bad person!

For awhile I've battled with some thing I've done in the past but looking back at everything as a whole and the frame of my mind back then I've come to the conclusion.... I wasn't a bad person. And although wrestling with that may have stunted some things to right about now. I'm still not a shitty dude! I feel great and I'm sure my future decisions from now on will reflect just that.
Oh and I just didn't sit down and think about this crud till I came up with it. Twas truly "memorial" day.

I'm also making an original song of my own and its turning out a lot better than I originally hoped for. The current title is "I bet dolphin's don't taste that great anyways" but its subject to change because I'm not sure everyone shares my humor.

BTW: The title has nothing to do with the song unless you want it to.

I didn't want to leave this thing without a pikcha but I haven't taken anything recently; so here's a shop of something mike took with my camera the other day.

hmmmm.... needs more cowbell

Adaptation

2009-05-08T18:02:00.000-07:00

I just watched adaptation last night. Ridiculously good movie. Something tells me I should have watched Being John Malkovich first. Whatever, I'll watch it tonight.

This little rant in the movie is something I think people could find relatable to charlie kaufman. At least I chuckled at some of the similar direction i'd notice in my thoughts.

"Do I have an original thought in my head? My bald head. Maybe if I were happier, my hair wouldn't be falling out. Life is short. I need to make the most of it. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. I'm a walking cliché. I really need to go to the doctor and have my leg checked. There's something wrong. A bump. The dentist called again. I'm way overdue. If I stop putting things off, I would be happier. All I do is sit on my fat ass. If my ass wasn't fat I would be happier. I wouldn't have to wear these shirts with the tails out all the time. Like that's fooling anyone. Fat ass. I should start jogging again. Five miles a day. Really do it this time. Maybe rock climbing. I need to turn my life around. What do I need to do? I need to fall in love. I need to have a girlfriend. I need to read more, improve myself. What if I learned Russian or something? Or took up an instrument? I could speak Chinese. I'd be the screenwriter who speaks Chinese and plays the oboe. That would be cool. I should get my hair cut short. Stop trying to fool myself and everyone else into thinking I have a full head of hair. How pathetic is that? Just be real. Confident. Isn't that what women are attracted to? Men don't have to be attractive. But that's not true. Especially these days. Almost as much pressure on men as there is on women these days. Why should I be made to feel I have to apologize for my existence? Maybe it's my brain chemistry. Maybe that's what's wrong with me. Bad chemistry. All my problems and anxiety can be reduced to a chemical imbalance or some kind of misfiring synapses. I need to get help for that. But I'll still be ugly though. Nothing's gonna change that."

The Rice

2009-05-07T13:19:00.000-07:00

recorded then tried to make it sound like the old recording he did such a long time ago. pretty fun/funny.

volcano cover

Don't hold yourself like that
cause you'll hurt your knees
i kissed your mouth and back
thats all i need

don't build you're world around
volcanoes melt you down

what i am to you, is not real
what i am to you, you do not need
what i am to you, is not what you mean to me
so give me miles and miles of mountains and ill ask..

for what i give to you
is just what i'm going through
this is nothing new
oh no just another phase of finding
what i really need
is what makes me bleed
like a new disease
she's still to young to treat

woke up quick, at about noon

2009-05-04T13:05:00.000-07:00

this is what happens when i leave my camera at a party. damn you mike!!

too awesome.

inebriated

2009-05-01T02:43:00.000-07:00

"beauty often seduces us on the road to truth"

true dat!

o_o

2009-04-29T21:50:00.001-07:00

Work In Progress

2009-04-28T23:14:00.000-07:00

I was planning on rerecording this but I don't want to concentrate to hard on one song for too long. Yeah it's another cover that doesn't do much justice but it helps me try to find a vocal range I'm more comfortable in.

Me - You Can't Go To Sleep ( street to nowhere (RIP))

You can't go to sleep
sleep has gotta come to you
you cant go to sleep
she's gotta come to you

She's a cold wind on your eyes
a glacier in your mind
a naive girl, who thinks she fell in love for the first time
Don't say a thing
she comes for me
don't say a thing
Don't say a thing
she comes for me

You can't go to sleep
gotta make her feel unwanted
you cant go to sleep
gotta make her want it

you can chase her 'round for hours
adjusted eyes bouquet of flowers
but you'll come on too strong
and burn holes in the ceiling with your eyes
you swear you're getting close
you're tearing off her clothes
but she'll spread wings
and you can't even sleep
to dream to fly
Don't say a thing
she comes for me
don't say a thing
Don't say a thing
she comes for me

Gonna make a habit
of the medicine cabinet
Gonna make a habit
hold down her wrists
and hold down your eyelids
and fall asleep

split ends

2009-04-27T10:15:00.000-07:00

i wonder why my mind wanders

the raindrop on the car window splitting in two and racing to wherever the wind takes them

the young adult who's climbing the ladder of academics to climb the career ladder to prove himself that he's worth a monetary damn rather than his stoned friend who's sitting down and chuckling to himself about a restless boy who refuses to grow up so he drinks and smokes because he's distressed at life's limits and its perverts, looking down on his friends who grew up and gave in.

one brother seeks solace in the arms of another woman to give him a purpose
another brother who seeks happiness in the happiness of others
the last brother lost in a sea of broken hearts and broken promises to everyone he's ever loved

plenty fractures from the same crack

"and you never feel good or bad only strange and unprepared"

On a lighter note, I've been getting pretty positive feedback from the song I posted recently. So I'll make another one sometime soon.
Also I just had my job interview today and I pretty much nailed it.

and if not... I'm down to look foolish.

Shame

2009-04-24T19:54:00.000-07:00

I've always despised the sound of my own voice. Not really recent news. However, because of motivation and criticism from a few of my friends I've decided to try and shake my humiliation nerve.

so heres a song.

*Warning/Disclaimer*
if you do not want your ears to throw up because
1.my voice
2.the feedback because i forgot to turn off my speakers
then
Do Not Listen.

First Verse + Chorus? Of Bright Eyes - Lua
TDASHC - Lua

lyrics:
I know that it is freezing but i think we have to walk
I keep waving at the taxis they keep turning their lights off
but julie knows a party at some actor's west side loft
supplies are endless in the evening by the morning they'll be gone

when everything is lonely i can be my own best friend
i get a coffee and the paper have my own conversations
with the sidewalk and the pidgeons and my window reflection
the mask i polish in the evening by the morning looks like shit

and i know you have a heavy heart
i can feel it when we kiss
so many men stronger than me
have thrown their backs out trying to lift it

but me i'm not a gamble
you can count on me to split.

At Least I'm Not As Sad As I Used To be

2009-04-22T02:15:00.001-07:00

Fun - Be Calm

May 21 2009 8:00P
Troubadour w/ Manchester Orchestra - SOLD OUT Los Angeles, California

FML

[MP3] new Fun: "At Least I'm Not As Sad (As I Used To Be)"

Recollection

2009-04-20T00:59:00.000-07:00

I found an old blog entry I wrote a year ago.

Here here
the daring not dare be demure
i deem thee a flea
that once lain on my brain

okay i admit it, im fucked up. both in actions and as a person. i remember how id feel guilty and embarrassed by the stupid things i did. grinned and played along to the people who believed we could play together because we're "similarly fucked up" only to be casted away for fake ass pretending to be fucked up! well maybe that says something about him or her... or them. the ones i condemn? to the truth i pretend to have transcend from the tens of thousand of thoughts whirling and twirling my mind in this endless bullshit rhyme.

too revealing?... should be more... concealing?
irrelevant
alone elated? dethroned vacated?
oh me oh my.

LONG DAY

What in the world was I talking about?
Note to self: talking in code means nothing if you don't eventually understand.
The past is a strange concept. We try to analyze and understand it in order to prevent similar mistakes from recurring but the past is reconstructive because of memories. So what do we turn to for truth? People? Books? Pictures?

....I have to admit its pretty funny though.

...

2009-04-14T00:16:00.001-07:00

(12:12:09 AM) yourabigstupid: get out of my head
(12:12:39 AM) jackstrider8: I CANT ITS A MAZE OF TORMENT O_O
(12:13:11 AM) yourabigstupid: lies im thinking about pudding
(12:13:20 AM) jackstrider8: I CANT SWIM
(12:13:46 AM) yourabigstupid: you've no proof
(12:15:05 AM) jackstrider8: the proof is in the pudding

'till we resurface

2009-04-13T13:28:00.000-07:00

Fan made Bioshock doll. Tight.

And Away We Go

2009-04-13T01:13:00.000-07:00

sure it seems like a typical indie modeled film but god dammit, krasinski is too fucken awesome.

Oh, poor me

2009-04-10T22:57:00.000-07:00

stop being a schmuck Earick!

I'm back baby. Shit will probably go bad again, but for now, I'm back.
Dependency issues can go suck on a lemon. There's too much I don't know to want to spend all of that time figuring it out with somebody.

Worded wrong. There aint enough time to spend looking for someone to share things with especially if thats one of the only things you're doing. The halt of progression shall henceforth be impeded by my ambition!

remember. remember. remember. you can do this. remember.

Updated update

2009-04-08T19:00:00.000-07:00

Oh, you were born with the sun
And oh, you will die with the moon
Everything you thought you had you lost
But now you'd never lose what you don't have

Prayers from above, never answered quite enough
Now the only one you have is you

With this cruel and bitter heart
You were cold and in love, left here naked in the sun
Run scared from this cruel and bitter world
This has only begun, now the bombs are bursting off

Smoke arose on azimuth glares
bodies brewed and frigid winter air
Where families' sons are robbed beneath their feet, and hearts conceit
"Ab Ovo," the angel sings "Ad astra" our eyes to the sea,
We thought that we had a cause for suffering
and reason enough to die alone

but you With this cruel and bitter heart
You were cold and in love, left here naked in the sun
Run scared from this cruel and bitter world
This has only begun, now the bombs are bursting off

Prayers from above, never answered quite enough
Now the only one you have is

ACT III is set for release on the 23rd of June 2009.
I ripped the song where it's just Casey and the piano from their update awhile back. Special thanks to Wilmer for getting me the higher quality format to work with.
http://www.mediafire.com/?z1zey0zyndr

New psp

2009-04-07T12:57:00.000-07:00

"According to Pocket Gamer, who cite a developer working on the hardware, an all-new PlayStation Portable will be out and on store shelves before Christmas."

I'm guessing this is more of what the new psp could look like.
Which looks pretty sweet.

I was once a loyal lover

2009-04-05T18:57:00.001-07:00

Same old scenario. Same old rain.

Nothing new, really. I like to believe I'm constantly progressing as a person when it comes to ethics, principles, etc. but the "maturing" process is also destroying the more bubbly hopeful side of my demeanor. and I don't need a different perspective on this because it seems more perspectives I've accumulated on certain subjects have subjected me to waver in my own code beliefs. Which I suppose you can tie back into maturing and identity possibly. GOD, I hate talking like this. I confuse myself.
Alright I don't know what I'm talking about and I even second guess myself constantly when I start putting something down and I'm pretty sure its because, unfortunately, I care about what people would think of me when they read it. Well let's just see how it pans out if I write stuff I actually think about.

I'm sick of most things life has presented me. You spend the first part of your life in a cave lit with artificial lamps of the conditioners to further their enterprise. Then when you finally get out of the fucken cave, you end up in a world of utter darkness with infinite possibilities but with futile ends. The whores and the hypocrites. The cowards and the controllers. You wonder if the world is an allegory of your self centered life. The accumulation and progress of each multiplying cell in your body reflects societies ego driven craze to further its own ends. Then you can't even bear to look at any mirror as the reflection of your body and mind is breaking down. Maybe you're in hell... then you start to wonder if you've made your own hell. Eternal torment are words that automatically sends that hidden feeling straight to the front lines. I'm not alone either, I can see it in the eyes of my fellow tormented friends that they're as lost as I am. That was once the solace I felt when we exchanged scars. We were writhing together, while the poets cried themselves to sleep, the comedians mocked the dark, and the genius built fires. The previous cast applies to those not blessed with ignorance, even though the same archetypes can be found with the same.
If I in fact have made my own hell then I truly hope someone can show me a way out.
For now, I suppose I'll bathe in the fires of my good friends and only offer my blues in the disguise of ingenuity.

anyways, back to fake reality.
I've failed in my resolutions. I've had 30 odd cigarettes over the past 3 months, smoked weed 5 times over that past 2. Lame, how weak I am to indulge in this stuff to escape life's tribulations.

Zeitgeist

2009-04-01T01:07:00.000-07:00

I am content with my life.
and I just finished my debate brief. All is well with the world.

.....

.............

april fools... damn

Make My Heart Sing

2009-03-26T18:48:00.000-07:00

I'm thor. You're thor? ..well it hurts

2009-03-24T00:52:00.000-07:00

Well, I had some fun playing paintball with my brothers and a couple of friends a couple days ago. We were in pretty noob status with our rental gear but who would have thought we would have ran into friends of our friends.... who all had a party, rented room, and private day session... who were kind enough to invite us.. who all had pro gear and experience.
my everywhere hurts

Roads? Where we're going we don't need roads

2009-03-12T02:59:00.000-07:00

So I found some old pictures I took back in my going to shows/photoshoping phase(obviously). Man I love this blog, it can really take your mind off things and people. I'll try to do some present day stuff later on, though. I'm still making up my mind about different projects not involving light, flipping mirrors, and convex or concave(I don't know) pieces of plastic.
Oh yeah I might as well address my position on photography while the subjects up. It sounds like a cop out... hell it probably is.. but I'm not too keen on the whole idea of conventional art. or was it unconventional? Regardless, I would never call my pictures art and I wouldn't want anyone to do the same. I enjoy candid shots, passing around a camera so we can look through someone else's eyes... through a lens, and simple commemorations of events/times. Of course, I'm not saying I despise that whole arty side of things and all it encompasses. I'm just not advanced enough to even understand half of it and there's just too much planning involved which I've never been good at. "I'm a dog chasing cars. I wouldn't know what to do with one if I caught it. You know, I just... do things"

Lovedrug

As Cities Burn

say la v

2009-03-09T23:49:00.000-07:00

If you have problems, don't talk about them. The real ones anyway. Tell your friends the usual pathetic crap that skims the surface of your life. Girls, money, school. Its basic and will get you by those annoying inquiries. Even if they did care, what's the point since its not going to change anything but give them something to talk about with other people. Fuck sympathy.
The only you can do is put on some clown make up and dance until the lights go out.

^_^ koo koo ka choo!

Watchmen

2009-03-06T05:14:00.000-08:00

Was a spectacular spectacle of in many aspects but, of course, die hard comic book fans might not be so respectful... Silk Spectress was hot.

In all seriousness, it was a very decent adaptation if you take into account the limits of time and Hollywood; of course I don't know about these things anyways since I'm more of general idea sort of person. I'm no movie buff either but I did read the comic and shared many conversations including but not limited to "oh, where was...? and they should have.." I won't spoil it if there is in fact anyone who reads this crap and haven't seen it(I highly doubt) but I suggest taking it for what it is, Zack Snyder's own take on, what I speculate, a very difficult comic to adapt.

It was a pretty fun night and I enjoyed the movie, minus the blatant engrossment of famous 80's music. Hey, I enjoy Bob Dylan as much as the next ordinary joe but I don't want it shoved down my throat. That's what she said.
I digress. Fun night! 10+ friends. In n Out. Mike dressed in a very well made comedian costume and we had Denny's as a night cap.

"Heard a joke once: Man goes to doctor. Says he's depressed. Says life seems harsh and cruel. Says he feels all alone in a threatening world where what lies ahead is vague and uncertain. Doctor says "Treatment is simple. Great clown Pagliacci is in town tonight. Go and see him. That should pick you up." Man bursts into tears. Says "But, doctor...I am Pagliacci." Good joke. Everybody laugh. Roll on snare drum. Curtains."

Feliz cumpleaños primo (late)

2009-03-04T20:15:00.000-08:00

ommitted pictures due to... laziness

03/06/09

2009-03-02T21:46:00.000-08:00

The sun came up with no conclusion
Flowers sleeping in their beds
The city cemetery's humming
I'm wide awake, it's morning

Happy Birthday Dr Seuss

2009-03-02T02:10:00.000-08:00

7:00 AM:
I woke up tired and finished my project
with roars of snores parading through the room
but I quickly finished due to my new found logic
that determined the beast would be up very soon

And so he did stir with a grr and a "errr...
you sir, are a jerk blah blah blah... hurl
why in hell are the blinds open, not closed"
to which I replied "As I awoke they suddenly rose!!"

"it was a spectacle with birds singing songs,
even the jub jub didn't get one note wrong"
the grinch muttered and cursed as he threw his clock
straight towards my head which I instantly blocked

noone knows why dale's so cranky at all
my guess is his penis is two sizes too small

Well I didn't have time go out shopping so I'll have to just do with green eggs and spam... and rice

we've all been here before...

2009-02-24T22:15:00.000-08:00

DaleAmoeba: well i do see human life as expendable
yourabigstupid: really?!
DaleAmoeba: i didnt say that'
DaleAmoeba: my hero did
yourabigstupid: what did i tell you about listening to your mom
DaleAmoeba: you didnt tell me anything
yourabigstupid: is she telling you to say this
yourabigstupid: wink twice
yourabigstupid: if shes behind you
DaleAmoeba: she went to go hunt pinguins
yourabigstupid: what the hell
DaleAmoeba: that episode of futurama
DaleAmoeba: with the penguins
yourabigstupid: what the hell
DaleAmoeba: lleh eht tahw
yourabigstupid: bob lob law
DaleAmoeba: if it aint black and white... peck scratch and bite.
yourabigstupid: if its brown drink it down if its black send it back
DaleAmoeba: if its yellow let it mellow, if its brown flush it down
yourabigstupid: you can tune a piano but you can't tuna fish
DaleAmoeba: so i said "super collider, i barely know her"
yourabigstupid: an hero ain't nothing but a hypercorrection
DaleAmoeba: hyper errection?
yourabigstupid: hyperrection
DaleAmoeba: hyper piper
yourabigstupid: high per pie per
DaleAmoeba: so i get into work today
DaleAmoeba: and theres 3 pies
DaleAmoeba: just sitting there
yourabigstupid: lazy ass pies
DaleAmoeba: cherry, apple, and pumpkin
yourabigstupid: i don't get it

maybe.

2009-02-22T19:12:00.000-08:00

"There's no one that can match me.
My style is impetuous.
My defense is impregnable,
and I'm just ferocious. I want your heart. I want to eat his children. Praise be to Allah!"
- Mike Tyson
[Lennox Lewis had no children at the time of this quote.] [yt]

I've been hypnotized by Mike Tyson's wikiquote page. This man is an entertaining genius.
I HIGHLY recommend a casual read or at least a youtube search of his quotes.
Praise be to allah.

Up And Atom

2009-02-13T04:56:00.000-08:00

I really have to stop staying up so late. As part of a new discipline routine I shall only limit myself to 2 days out of the week for staying up late. Thursdays and a different spontaneous day.
BUT LOOK AT WHAT I'VE ACCOMPLISHED!!!!
...its funnier if you were doing it.

pew pew pew

C'est la chanson, la nuit, le vent, l'amour , le son

2009-02-11T01:06:00.000-08:00

Firstly worstly, an address to my latest creation.
Alright so my latest entry would be more suitable for a livejournal yeah yeah, whatever! I just needed to get some words off my chest and although it isn't possible to see those words and what's the point of any of it if blah blah blah blah. I get it but i couldn't just write something and scrap all of it. Depriving the existence of a mistake is still immoral in my opinion. Better to be born with a missing eye than not be born at all?... Possibly?
- La Fin

Second reckoned, the account of Monte Cristo *cough* I mean French crap.
I'm not innocent in the popular american way of taking pride of insulting the nation, creed, or language of France but.... yes. However, when I feel serious I'm quite open, interested, and even awed at the language's disposition to romance. The title is an allusion to Damien Rice's The Professor and La Fille Danse lyrics and to my little knowledge means:
"It is the song, the night, the wind, the love, the sound."
It's open to interpretation, as is everything, and you'd have to hear the rest of the song but if you want to take my word for it then I believe he's admitting that she doesn't miss him but the feelings/events associated with him. Ta da. Which is pretty close to Name Taken's line
"I still can't move I miss the feeling and everything but you" although not in the same perspective and a bit less blunt. I'm sure everyone has experienced this sort of feeling at one point or another if you've had the privilege of being in a relationship. But its still just as hard hitting to the soul as a bat to the face. (the mammal(batman))

I personally enjoy listening to Damien Rice, immensely. I hate to sound like a kind of ambiguous music critic but the music has an earthy texture with an immeasurable amount of feeling and Rice is talented enough to have it fornicate with our own feelings (yeah i said it) as well as clever enough to subtly hint at his flawed behavior with his self-depreciative lyrics. Yeah most of it is sad and that could possibly be the reason why I listen to it but "unfortunately, we're not robots".
Oh yeah a good little trivia is that my biggest brother was the first to shove his music down my throat. You'd think I'm being a bit over dramatic with imagery but he'll even admit to his nature of incessantly listening to a particular band or artist when catching his fancy. Which explains how I know a few old Usher songs by heart as well as Back Street Boys and various japanese pop artists I can't even pronounce.

Hmmm I want to include some kind of photograph but I've got nothing relative. Screw it here's mah puppay.

**Oh yeah I keep forgetting. HI LENA KHY! ^^**

Current Listening Habits:
isn't it obvious? well instead here are some links for your listening pleasure.
Damien Rice - The Professor and La Fille Danse
(Lisa Hannigan sings the first french verse in this live version)
Damien Rice - Hallelujah
(Although I'm more fond of Jeff Buckley's rendition)
FOTC - Bret You've Got It Going On
(just watch it)

Hi again Lena!

woah woah woe

2009-02-09T03:48:00.000-08:00

i'm only going to write something like this once. and i apologize in advance for anyone who would take the time to read this.

EDITED:
*i deleted most of this post because of the nature of it. and i'm sure my mind isn't thinking straight enough to be writing most of this down coherently. however ill leave a few sentences and the aftermath*

REREDIT:
*that looked ridiculous so im just putting the aftermath*

REREEDIT: third time's the charm
i was listening to Pedro The Lion while studying for my midterm when I heard this verse from the song Magazine. David Bazan pretty much summed up in five lines what I spent paragraphs trying to explain.

This line is metaphysical
And on the one side, on the one side
The bad half live in wickedness
And on the other side, on the other side
The good half live in arrogance

Paradigm Shift

2009-02-03T02:44:00.000-08:00

I've always been a doubtful as well as a paranoid person, which isn't a great combination. That and all of the bullshit my mind told me I was going through gave birth to my adoring pessimism. Then there was this constant that was constantly there but not exactly at the same time. But something happened recently that I didn't think was possible. My constant relieved me of my doubt by simply continuing to be constant. Hours of bliss from months of joyful correspondence has led to two years of a sacrament I'm only too glad to have found before I die.

You've made me a better person as well as want to become better.
And for that.
Thank you, Mo ghrá síoraí.

Current Listening Habits:
Damien Rice [O + 9]
"tell em god just dropped by to forgive our sins and relieve us our doubt"
The Beatles [White Album + Sgt Pepper + Magical Mystery Your]
"all you need is love"

Comment Moderation

2009-01-28T02:07:00.000-08:00

A revamp in my blog deserves a new post.

Readme.txt
New Updates:
. Added new title header picture (contemplated including miniature silhouette of delorean or 88 but decided against due to obscurity/vagueness)
. Changed Post Title Font + Color giving site a brand new color scheme
. Added a poll which as it turns out, I cannot answer myself. I'd throw up if I added Vanilla Ice.
. Thanks for buying me Wendy's, Masaki

Current Listening Habits: (Albums but particulars include)
Tokyo Police Club - cut cut paste
Copeland - On The Safest Ledge (Yeah just cause when the chick chimes in it blows my mind, especially the harmony)
Oren Lavie - Her Morning Elegance (Courtesy El Kimbo, Thanks again and be sure to check out the video on her blog)

Moment

2009-01-25T21:58:00.000-08:00

Some thing familiar and...
nostalgia hits me like a sharp bone hits the roof of my mouth.
Imagery has never been my strongsuit, neither clearly superimposed in my head nor coherently scrawled by my own hands.
I suppose they go hand in hand.
What a shame, my words are only copies and rehashes of words that were well sewn by others.
Others with a better education, a brighter mind, more open and actual. Others worth a damn.
My words are hollow and cheap.
My words... they need to get better. They need to be stronger.
My word is all I have and I've been abusing it.

I need to grow.
I will mature.

Jeez my mind is always shifting from one moment to another. I lack stability. I just wrote this and I already regret it. I absolutely despise the way it makes me look. Weak. Well, at least the ending kinda feels like a self help tape.

! Alright! No more being possessed by the Sul King. Less cheap talk, more ass kickery!
Thanks for putting up with this stuff guys! Check out this picture I done did awhile back.